Reflecting on my latest read
I just put the kids to bed and was sitting here reflecting on a busy day. We had a party for my youngest who turned five this week. Time passes so quickly. When school starts back in the fall, it will be the first time since having children that I don’t have a preschooler in the home. I just finished reading a very thought-provoking book entitled Hands Free Mama:A Guide to Putting Down the Phone, Burning the To-Do List, and Letting GO of Perfection to Grasp What Really Matters! Not two days later, I got the chance to put some of the advice in the book to the test. Would I be able to plan a birthday party for my five year old and let go of the perfection and really stop and enjoy the process with my kids? I can’t say that my first test in the area of releasing perfectionism and being present in the moment went off without any hitches at all, but being aware did make me stop several times throughout the day. I paused to read a book to my daughter when lying her down for a nap. I let the nine-year old in the family do all the decorating with no advice from mom. I also left the basement in all its unorganized glory for all to see. Instead of insisting that everything be perfect, I let some things go and tried to enjoy the process more. I can see that a hands-free journey will be a process for me, but one worth my time. I highly recommend this book.
Spring Cleaning of My Soul
Do you ever find yourself walking along in life and letting things so totally entangle your time and emotions that you find nothing left to give your family? I have been in that place a few times over the last couple of years. Last year I was trying to work outside the home one day a week as a registered nurse, homeschool two kids full-time, entertaining a preschooler, teach a preschool class weekly at church, and maintain a blog with regular curriculum review deadlines. I found myself losing sleep and not only depriving myself of needed rest and downtime, but cutting into my quality time with the family. In January I purposed to let go of the review commitments on the blog and begin blogging for fun again. I began to look for ways to say “no” to allow a little margin in my life. Shortly after making that decision, I lost my aunt suddenly and entered a rather low time emotionally in my life. I felt slightly depressed, unmotivated and I did a lot of soul-searching. I found that there were some things I really needed to change in my life. I cried out to the Lord on a regular basis and He has been leading me through one process at a time “spring cleaning” my soul so to speak. He is so kind to bring one thing at a time to my heart and mind so that this highly distracted mama can deal with one issue at a time. I have been dealing with unforgiveness, selfishness, and perfectionism over the last couple of months. You may have noticed that I have been somewhat absent here on the blog. This was because I could not bring myself to do one more thing the last few months. I purposed to stop more and have fun with the kids. I am trying very hard to be less task-oriented and more aware of times I can make memories with the kids. I am trying to listen more to the quiet requests of my kids and the still small voice of the Holy Spirit and less to the chiming of my electronic devices. With the coming of spring, I feel hope blossoming in my soul again. I intend to post more regularly again and hope that as God leads me in this daily walk, I will be able to share authentically with you my journey. Would you join me in the journey to savor life more this year? I know it will take time to transform from a doer to a state of being still. I want to go from a crazy distracted mama to one who can stop and look at crickets in the grass, have a cup of coffee with a friend and make time for creative and academic pursuits. I am focusing on looking for small moments throughout my day that I can be present in my life and savor my life. Taking regular breaks from media and electronics to do things with people I love, cultivate real life relationships and hear the cries of my loved ones hearts are the goals of my present journey. Until next time……..